Leader defined

               Heart pounding. Throat drying-up. Knees trembling... Staggering, she steps in front of the crowd, head-up. She speaks but more like stuttering... She then closes her eyes, whispering behind her mind, "Father, give me confidence to lead these people. Let them see Your glory." She opens her eyes full of hope and care...She steps back and bows down very low in front of the awe-filled random crowd, promising, "I, Mariel Felizardo, as your leader, promise to serve thee. May you see the goodness of glory of God."
                Four years have passed yet the memoirs about her live behind my mind. Everything is vivid...At the brink of her life, she sang praises to God, consuming all her last energy to praise her Maker because she knew that it was the last minute she could praise the Lord here on Earth and with her mundane body. My grandma walked on Earth as a living testimony. I could never ever describe her with words but I can only tell you how she lived. Lola Lydia was a woman filled with strength and long-suffering masked with captivating BEAUTY. I have known her to be someone who would and could NEVER complain and would keep still in spite the pain she had been agonizing over...she continued to serve the people and the Lord in church without telling anyone that the cancer cells inside her body were expending her whole body. She died of stage 3 going to stage 4 liver cancer. Without our knowledge, she cooked for, taught and serve us yet she smiled a lot. Gifted with golden voice, my mami Lydia sang hymnals all the time(I miss this so much:|).
I would hear,
"Why should I feel discouraged
Why should the shadows come
Why should my heart fell lonely
And long for heaven and home
When Jesus is my portion
A constant friend is he
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches over me
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches me
I sing because I'm happy
I sing because I'm free
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches me," every morning in the kitchen and I would always tell myself, "Umagang umaga palang kumakanta na." I guess that's why she never told us about her pains, because she depended solely on God and knew that she would never be forsaken because she was being watched over. Anyway, that is how my mami Lydia lived. She IS my role model in life and with her being my role model, I would want to become a woman leader in the future of course, with the aid of my present school.
             If I were asked how I see myself as a woman leader after college, I would give two words: A servant. That is how I want to be. It may sound ironic but I guess that is the best way for me to be a true leader and this is my heart's desire. I would want to be someone who listens to the cries and needs of the people. I would want to serve them like how Jesus did ages ago. He WAS and IS a King but He humbled Himself and dressed as a servant to serve US. Like how my lola was, I want to become still and patient in spite of raging storms. Through this, people may see and follow me. Full of compassion and love, I wish to serve the Filipinos and others most especially those who are struggling with psychological problems (lol). Not only do I wish to serve and help the people, but also Mother nature. I owe her my life; so, I plan to join organizations involve in taking care of Mother Nature.  I can do all these with the help of our Redeemer. With truth, justice, peace and integrity of creation, I wish to be a SERVANT-LEADER.
             I may not become a president or a leader, technically, but I wish to at least ACT like one through serving and may inspire people with my walk on Earth. I am sure that I would not build roads and do projects and stuff for the people but I know with all my wishes and desires to become a servant-leader, I would live a little legacy for the people.